(Verse 1)   Let's look behind the Swarovski crystals   Behind the .50 calibers and the pistols   Misused, pardoned self got to excuse, my issues   For me to have you a ritual   But, I ain't as crazy as I seem to be   It's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me   Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressents   In essence im threatenin my character asessment   Truth told, I figure a few hoe's   Mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes   If I'm misundersttod or mis-guided   Started when they passed the L' said 'just try it'   When I don't wanna get out of bed I just fight it   Sometimes I don't eat for days I just diet   Only live once so if I just like it   I aint even checkin' the price, I just buy shit   I'm thinkin that will just hide it   But all it takes is life to ignite shit   I'm thinkin' bout death wonderin' how I'm gonna go   I can't be insane for just wantin' to know   In my head I die often, I used to think of suicide often   Good suit on and a nice coffin   But, that ain't somethin' I would try myself   Still they lock me in this room all by myself   I need a... think I need a.....      [Hook]      [Verse 2]   They say my symptoms are aggressive   They titled me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive   They trying to tell I'm a con and I game niggas   That's one reason I dont even entertain niggas   Not important who they are I won't name niggas   They like to say I got a tendency to blame niggas   I keep fuckin' shit up but keep tryin'   If ya'll would just trust me I wouldn't just keep lyin'   If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt   Let me clarify get in Def   I feel like every time I been less   When ever I invest whenever I inset I feel I'm innept   I try to make them understand but they just won't incept   I tell them four million others I am the templed   There ain't no book that tells a story there ain't no index   We got some different type of cuts and no they ain't princess   All this indigest seemingly in less   How I take in stress when I always went best   Aching in my chest and yet it still won't break me   They say the room is padded for my own safety   But the cushion don't soften shit   They locked the door but still they let my thoughts in it   And no one can tell me why I'm here   I can't even see the sky from here   I guess my time is near