that's me staring out my window    different man than i was before    i was scared with no hesitation   kept me running for the door      when i spoke    well my words fell away yeah    into something that i can't deny    i was confronted by a nasty reputation ???   a never ending circle washed me up to see the lie   in my mind that was ever so elusive    hidden deep beneath a plastic shine    i had to wonder if i'd ever really figure out    what it was i was trying to find    so along was i ever thinking    did i ever really understand    i was covered by a wave of confusion    showing in my shaking hands tonight    i was in a situation    did i wanna just take control or run    but i never checked my opinion    still just laying silent in the sun      days away    the one mistake that i made   days away   coming in the air to save me now