I've been practicing all day   Now the words I meant to say are gone   I promised that I wouldn't cry   Told myself I had to try and hold on   The truth, I lied   I hate myself inside   And why   I played the game and paid the price   I never look back   I never cry never try to wonder why   I'll be on my own   And never doubt, never shout or wonder how   I'll never be lonely until   This time, this time, this time   This time I will   I've been wide awake all night   There's no sign of sleep inside my mind   The headlight shadows scan my wall   I convince myself you'll call in time   The truth, I lied   The girl in me has died   And why   I played the game and paid the price   I never look back...   This time I will be yours completely   This time I'll make sure you don't hate me   This time I know, this time I can and this time I will   I never look back...   I've been practicing all day   Now the words I meant to say are gone.