Songwriters: Thiessen, Matthew Arnold;I'll tell you flat out it hurts so much to think of this  So from my thoughts I will exclude  The very thing that I hate more than everything is  The way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods    I've thrown away so many things  That could've been much more  And I just pray my problems go  Away if they're ignored  But that's not the way it works  No that's not the way it works    When I go down, I go down hard  And I take everything I've learned  And teach myself some disregard  When I go down, it hurts to hit the bottom  And of the things that got me there  I think, if only I had fought them    If and when I can  Clear myself of this clouded mind  I'll watch myself settle down into a place where  Peace can search me out and find  That I'm so ready to be found    I've thrown away the hope I had in friendships  I've thrown away so many things  That could have been much more  I've thrown away the secret to find an end to this  And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored  But that's not the way it works  No that's not the way it works    When I go down, I go down hard  And I take everything I've learned  And teach myself some disregard  When I go down, it hurts to hit the bottom  And of the things that got me there  I think, if only I had fought them    Any control I thought I had  Just slips right through my hands  While my ever-present conscience  Shakes its head and reprimands me  Reprimands me    Then and there I confess  I'll blame all this on my selfishness  Yet You love me and that consumes me  And I'll stand up again  And do so willingly    You give me hope, and hope it gives me life  You touch my heavy heart  And when You do You make it light  As I exhale I hear Your voice  And I answer You, though I hardly make a noise    And from my lips the words I choose to say  Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise  Because I love You, oh God, I love You    And life is now worth living  If only because of You  And when they say that I'm dead and gone  It won't be further from the truth    When I go down I lift my eyes to You  I won't look very far 'cause You'll be there  With open arms to lift me up again  To life me up again      © GOTEE MUSIC INC; RED COATS ARE COMING;    these lyrics are last corrected by Joe