Started out trying to fake a smile   Disillusioned, I'm in denial   There's something missing cuz I don't feel a thing   I'm desensitized      You can't fake this and   I can't take anymore   I'm not so dumb I can ignore   Anymore      All this confusion is running deep inside my head   How much longer can I keep this up before I end up dead?      I can't believe that it could come to this   It's only feelings so I can't resist   I'm falling deeper to denial    Still I'm trying to believe in something