i am seeing tunnel vision   in a world that's dark and cold   i can't believe how much i've changed   since the days of old   i know it's temporary   but i need to focus straight   i can't believe i's lost control of my fate   i need forgiveness   from the people i truly care about   i need support behind my back    to help me spit it out i am gonna win   i can't afford to blow this one   i hate myself sometimes   i love myself   i need this way of life   because it holds me   I hate myself sometimes I love myself   contradictions the way of life   happiness is wealthiness is healthy   now that i've made it through   those lies and deceit   i think what's done is done   and i can't complain anymore   i am sure now that i've found myself again   it feels great   i can't believe i'd lost control of my fate