I woke up surprised and disappointed to find out i was still me   last night should have killed me   took a shower, couldn't scrub it off   tried to scream I could only cough   I can't trust myself   To be my own friend.      Exhausted by the effort that it takes to breathe   The whole world is against me   that's what I believe   Don't waste your empathy on me      I'm through   puttin' one foot infront of the other   and I do -    wanna run for cover from the   moment I wake up until I'm   staring at the ceiling trying to sleep   I wonder if I have a soul to keep.      Voices in my head will not turn off   There's a heavy weight on top   of my chest today   I don't want it to go away because      The moment I let down my guard   Life will hit my twice as hard   my mistake I thought    That i could have just one day off from      Pushing boulders up steep hills   Playing in traffic for cheap thrills   I don't know what to do   That's why I'm telling you that      I am through   Putting one foot in front of the other   And I do -   wanna run for cover from the    moment I wake up until I'm   staring at the ceiling trying to sleep   I wonder If I have a soul to keep      Sometime's there's nothing on my mind   But everything at one time   Find me sliding backwards down   To where I don't wanna be found      I'm through    putting one foot infront of the other   and i do -    wanna run for cover   stop with these tests   give me some rest   my heart is beating right out of my chest   I do believe I have a soul to keep.