I'm gnawing on the knowledge   That I have been burnt   And I'm learning things that I    Should've already learnt   Everyone I ever knew   Was so kind and coy   I was with a girl   But it felt like I was with a boy      and I can't even remember   If we were lovers   Or if I just wanted to   But I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   But it wasn't you      I will not kill   The one thing that I love   In this world of wreckage   I look above   Help me Lord   Help me understand   What it means to be a boy   What it means to be a man       I can't even remember   If we were lovers   Or if I just wanted to   But I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   But it wasn't you      I'm gnawing on the knowledge   That I have been burnt   And I'm learning things that I    Should've already learnt   Everyone I ever knew   Was so kind and coy   I was with a girl   But it felt like I was with a boy      and I can't even remember   If we were lovers   Or if I just wanted to   But I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   But it wasn't you      but I can't even remember   If we were lovers   Or if I just wanted to   But I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   I held her in my arms   But it wasn't you