I dont know why,  why I have to be alone tonight,  when I know your not,  its not fair.  I dont know why,  why I still believe in you,  after all the lies,  why I still care.  Why am I holdin on to you?  why am I holdin on?    Could it be because you were my first love?  because you told me things I always dreamed of?  or maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine?  Could it be the way that we first met?  how you dropped your phone and I wont forget,   when I picked it up and looked into your eyes,  how I knew you would be mine?    Its been so long,  and still I cant get over you.  I never like to hear the truth  of what went wrong.  Im fellin down,  each and every single night.  and in my head I try to fight  the truth that your gone.    Why am I holdin on to you?  why am i holdin on?    Could it be because you were my first love?  because you told me things I always dreamed of?  or maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine?  Could it be the way that we first met?  how you dropped your phone and I wont forget,   when I picked it up and looked into your eyes?    And all my friends,  they tell me I cant hold on to the past.  sure it was good,  but its no more,  sometimes somethings dont last.  Maybe it was good back them,  but its not good now.    Could it be because you were my first love?  because you told me things I always dreamed of?  or maybe how your hand fit  perfectly in mine?  or how we talk on the phone til I fell asleep?  and you told me all the time you needed me.  But when I needed you most you were gone out of my life.    How I wish that you were mine!    these lyrics are submitted by Courtney(: