I don't know why   I have to be alone tonight   When I know you're not   It's not fair      I don't know why   Why I still believe in you   After all the lies   Why I still care      Why'm I holding on to you?   Why'm I holding on?      Could it be because you were my first love   Because you told me things I always dreamed of   And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine   Could it be the way that we first met   How you dropped your phone and I won't forget   When I picked it up and looked into your eyes   And I knew you would be mine      It's been so long   Still I can't get over you   I never like to hear the truth   Of what went wrong      I'm feeling down   Each and every single night   Yet in my head I try to fight   The truth that you're gone      Why'm I holding on to you?   Why'm I holding on?      Could it be because you were my first love   Because you told me things I always dreamed of   And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine   Could it be the way that we first met   How you dropped your phone and I won't forget   When I picked it up and looked into your eyes      All my friends   They tell me I can't hold onto the past   Sure it was good but it's no more   Sometimes some things don't last   Maybe it was good back then   But it's not good now      Could it be because you were my first love   Because you told me things I always dreamed of   And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine      How we talked on the phone till we fell asleep   You told me all the time you needed me   But when I needed you most   You were gone out of my life   How I wish that you were mine      Could it be that you were mine