i've been scared and lonely   i've asked myself is something wrong with you   my girlfriend told me   i need some time alone to deal with issues      but something makes me carry on   it's difficult to understand   why i always wanna fly      i do it for the drugs   i do it just to feel alive   i do it for the love   that i get from the bottom of a bottle      you always call me   and ask me how i make it through the day   i'm always fallin'   i guess it's just god's way of making me pay      but something makes me carry on   it's difficult to understand, why i always wanna fly      (chorus)      when i, i wonder why i try   and i, i wonder why i bother   and i, i wonder why i cry   why i, i go through all this trouble