I have spent all my energy   Collecting souvenirs that I can't keep   I've got no place for them   And besides my life's a mess   I have spent the last few years   In a semi-constant state of anger   Bitterness and self disgust      And don't tell me my just desserts   Are waiting when I die   Banking on eternity   Is no way to live your life      And I'm running towards what I need   But there are taillights in front of me   And I am running from what I know   There is no place left for me to go      So I wander like the ancestors   That I've forsaken   Where is my respect?   If my great-great grandparents had only known   That their great-great grandson   Would end up turning people into stone   You think they'd have set a fucking foot onto that boat?   I don't, I don't      And don't tell me my just desserts   Are waiting when I die   Banking on eternity   Is no way to live your life      And I'm running towards what I need   But there are taillights in front of me   And I am running from what I know   There is no place left for me to go      And don't tell me my just desserts   Are waiting when I die   Banking on eternity   Is no way to live your life      Life is what you make of it    And I am on the verge of something big   I have seen a sinner's life and death   Stuck a finger in god's face and lived   So I tell my story, absent glory   Sacrificial lamb and nervous twitch   I can see myself in celebration   Giving what is finally mine to give