"Hate me like you should"       If you knew the last thing through my mind   before the whizzing of that steel   Was the nights we spent together   and how they made me feel.      Back when life seemed worth living   and you kept my heart beating.   As I lay here on my back   With my insides on my outside   I feel revolutionized and reverted to a child.      Babbles of insanity pearcing you ears    like the scraping of a chalk board.      If you don't care at all for me   who the fuck could care.   I break my ribs open and expose my heart to you.      Tears of humiliation break the awful silence.   The silence of a thousand years ive wasted   Hanging on to you.      Promises of better days   butterflies and lemonade   Things that never come around again   Because im too fucking sad to feel.      Trapped in a cage of hate   The bars of rusted tears ive made   Take me to a place inside   thats not safe for you to see.      I'd like to think you hate me   because hate is all-consuming   It would show me that you think about me   Even if im gone.      Its a bond that keeps us together    A mutual dis-respect, you think.   How in the dark you seem.   You never knew how I felt at all.      Id like to think like summer days   But the sunlight is all but gone   Winter has filled my heart   No room for you at all.      I fell upon the trap you set   and im happy that I did.   I wouldnt trade your beautiful eyes   for all the chances that ive missed.