So you took a chance and risked it all   Guess I should have done the same when I could've   I took the safest route, once again   And it only led to a place I rarely tread   No silver lining, no other way about it   I'm green with envy, and ripe with hatred for my inability   To dive headfirst, the only way I thought I knew   So this is what it took (to make me realize how I feel about you)      I guess I did a pretty good job, lied through my teeth   Tried to suppress feelings not so long gone   Just conveniently dismissed, for the sake of timing   At least now I know where I stand, still alone, bitter   And frustrated with the confusion, of possibility (use your illusion)      I fed you to the lions   Dressed you in a disguise, of prepared temptation   Breathed you in deep, one last time   Then consciously sent you into their jaws      Now as I sit here and attempt to make sense of this can of worms   You've dumped in my fucking lap…      My closest friend, my biggest enemy   Dwell within, the same chasm I've left vacant for my demons.