When he was cheating he was only cheating himself, and I know it kills you when he looks at her that way the way he used to look at you.       She said "its hard falling out of love". It's hard when you have no choice, Oh, I forget to tell you, you've been living a lie, I forgot to tell you something, "I never loved you".      How do we live with ourselves? How can we live with each other? I'm sorry six of them secord-rate (naivete) I can't believe I let that happen.      My head at the ceiling the water slowly   Rising the air that I'm breathing, exhausted and foul-smelling the bile behind my teeth, the taste of my somach feeble and weak.. I can't wash it away.      Claw through my back straight to the other side. When I was thick in your throat now I'm sick to my stomach. I never fail to surprise myself.