im a wanter      just walk out the front door, leave with him and let me be   let me collapse on to the floor, i'll stay down with the dust and mold   and i'll pour out my guts through my eyes and i'll let them creep out on to this chinese rug      last night i stripped out my teeth, because they were never what you wanted   you could never wear me like you wanted      maybe if i set myself on fire on your front yard   would you care then? would i look better then?      i guess i'll drink bottles of alcohol and swallow handfuls of those little white pills   to make myself explode      like empty beaches that stretch for miles i'll scream and no one will hear   and i'll perfect, i'll be beautiful, and i won't be me.