When I was 18 I was ready to go   Now I'm 23 and I just don't know   What fuck am I doing with my life?   And its hard to see when you're underwater   There's the surface and if you just try harder   Maybe you could reach the top for some air       But instead you just take this bottle   "I'm so fucked up" has become your motto         Wrists and knives are your supporting cast   In your film of lies and helplessness   That never quite was a blockbuster hit   Everyone turned you down, no one wanted a part of it       And you wish you had used a gun instead   There'd be no humiliation in the morning   And with a quick pull of the trigger   You could be gone like no one knew   But "Your beauty is a privilege, and I won't let you waste it on you."       So he thinks about starting again   But instead eats pills to spite his friends   He collapses on the floor and wakes up in a hospital bed      And he wonders what made him lose control   Shaking and spinning in a bathroom all alone   As the flames of imperfection burn him to the bone       He replaced his fears with bars and beer   Records his songs with a feigned blissful cheer   Though his feelings retreat with every drink       And he knows she going to go out tonight   With her tinted hair and a beer thats light   She knows she a slut but will never admit to it       You wish you had used a gun instead   There'd be no humiliation in the morning   And with a quick pull of the trigger   You could be gone like no one knew   But "Your beauty is a privilege, and I won't let you waste it on you."       1 2 3 4 5 am   pass the bottle another one night stand   6 7 8 9 10   finish the bottle and end the weekend.