i'm saving my piss in a jar    this depression has gone too far    i'm lying here in bed    am i alive or am i dead       i'm questioning my sanity       the paint chips are kicking in    desperation bubbles my skin    there's stuff crawling on the floor    crackers with black books knocking at my door       the tv's talking to me    i'm questioning my sanity       everybody have a breakdown!       i haven't changed my clothes in weeks    i'm wallowing in my own stink    my ass is sore from lying in bed    am i alive or am i dead?