Dear Diary,   Mood- apathetic      My life is spiraling downwards   I couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance   and suffocate me dry concert   that sucks 'cause they play some of my favorite songs   like stab my heart because I love you,   and rip apart my soul,   and of course stabbity rip stab, stab.   And it doesnt help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either   like that guy from that band can do.   Somedays...      I'm an emo kid   non-conforming as can be   you'd be non-conforming to if you looked just like me   I have paint on my nails and make up on my face   I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs   'cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag   I call it freedom of expression   most just call me a fag   'cause our dudes look like chicks   and our chicks look like dykes   'cause emo is one step below transvestite      Stop my breathing and slit my throat,   I must be emo   I don't jump around when I go to shows,   I must be emo   I'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteem   the way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween   I have no real problems but I like to make believe   I stole my sisters mascara and now I'm grounded for a week   Sulking, and writing poetry are my hobbies   I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing   Girls keep breaking up with me   it's never any fun   they say they already have a pussy-   they don't need another one      Stop my breathing and slit my throat,   I must be emo   I don't jump around when I go to shows,   I must be emo   Dye in my hair and polish on my toes,   I must be emo   I play guitar and write suicide notes   I must be emo      My life is just a black abyss; you know it's so dark   and it's suffocating me   grabbing hold of me and tightening its grip   tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans   which look great on me by the way      When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction   hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection   I write in my live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses   I told my friends I bleed black and cry during classes   I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth   you can read me Catcher in the Rye and watch me jack off   I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life   if I said I liked girls   I'd only be half right      I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,   I must be emo   Screw X-Box I play old school nintendo,   I must be emo   I like to whine and hit my parentals   I must be emo,   Me and my friends all look like clones   I must be emo      My parents just don't get me you know   they think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy   well, a couple guys   but I mean, its the 2000s.   Can't 2, or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?   I mean chicks dig that kind of thing anyways   I don't know diary   Somtimes I think you're the only one that gets me   You're my best friend...   I feel like tacos.