i'm scared of swimming in the sea    dark shapes moving under me    every fear i swallow makes me small    inconsequential things occur    alarms triggered    memories stir    it's not the way it has to be       i'm afraid of what i do not know    i hate being undermined    i'm afraid i can be devil man    and i'm scared to be divine    don't mess with me my fuse is short    beneath this skin these fragments caught       when i allow it to be    there's no control over me    i have my fears    but they do not have me       walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods    the deeper i go, the darker it gets    i peer through the window    knock at the door    and the monster i was    afraid of    lies curled up on the floor    is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy       i cry until i laugh       i'm afraid of being mothered    with my balls shut in the pen    i'm afraid of loving women    and i'm scared of loving men    flashbacks coming every night    don't tell me everything's alright       walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods    the deeper i go, the darker it gets    i peer through the window    knock at the door    and the monster i was    afraid of    lies curled up on the floor    is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy       i cry until i laugh