I can't sleep   This feelings ripping through my body   I can hardly breathe   What's happening to me?   I feel scared, alone, lost, confused   Feels like all my life in my mind I've been abused   I can't see clearly, Can't think straight   Condition's got a hand on me   And I can't turn back, it's too late   Sickness always comes at a cost   Nineteen years old and five years lost   Should I blame it on my father?   Is he the one that fucked me up   Or did I bring this upon myself   The wrenching feeling in my gut   Screaming won't help   And bleeding won't either   But the drugs that I take   Help me function better   No one can save me from this hell   Things are bad when everything is well   Afraid to live, too scared to die   Everything's a mess, I can't comply   Lost all possible world perspective   When all the others were friends and I was rejected   What was I supposed to do to fit in   Suck up my anger and throw out a grin   While inside I was hurting from an open hole   The piece of me that something stole   And I can't control the way I shake   I feel like I'm about to break   Am I going insane, is my brain shutting down   Am I losing my balance, will I fall to the ground   What am I supposed to do?   How am I supposed to feel?   What am I supposed to think when nothing seems quite real?   I've had enough   I've had enough   I've had enough   I guess I'm giving up