if i make a lot of tinsel then people will want to   if i am hardened no fear of further abandonment   if i am famous then maybe i´ll feel good in this skin   if i am cultured my words will somehow garner respect      i would throw a party still it would not come   i would bike run swim and still it would not come   i´d go travelling and still it would not come   i would starve myself and still it would not come      if i am masculine i will be taken more seriously   if i take a break it would make me irresponsible   if i´me elusive i will surely be sought after often   if i need asistance then i must be incapable      i´d be filthy rich and still   it would not come   i would seduce them and still   it would not come   i would drink vodka and still   it would not come   i´d have an orgasm still   it wouldn´t come      if i accumulate knowledge   i´ll be impenetrable   if i am aloof no one will know   when they strike a nerve   if i keep my mouth shut the boat   will not have to be rocked   if i am vulnerable i will be   trampled upon      i would go shopping and still   it would not come   i´d leave the country and still   it would not come   i would scream and rebel still   it would not come   i would stuff my face and still   it would not come      i´d be productive and still it would not come   i´d be celebrated still it would not come   i´d be the hero and still it would not come   i´d renunciate and still it would not come