dear dar(lin') your mom (my friend)left a message on my machine she was frantic    saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself   i guess she thought i´d be a perfect resort because we´ve had this inexplicable connection since our youth and   yes they´re in shock they are panicked you and your chronic them and their drama   you this embarrasment us in the middle of this delusion   if we were our bodies   if we were our futures   if we were our defenses i´d be joining you   if we were our culture   if we were our leaders   if we were our denials i´d be joining you   i remember vividly a day years ago we were camping you knew more than you thought    you shoud knowyou said "I don´t ever want to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling you were intense   you were uncomfortable in your own skin you were thirsty but mostly you were beautiful   if we were our nametags   if we were our rejections   if we were our outcomes i´d be joining you   if we were our indignities   if we were our successes   if we were our emotions i´d be joining you   you and i we´re like 4 year olds we want to know why and how come about everything   we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds and never talk small and be intuitive   and question mightily and find god my tortured beacon   we need to find like-minded companions   if we were their condemnations   if we were their projections   if we were our paranoias i´d be joining you   if we were our incomes   if we were our obsessions   if we were our afflictions i´d be joining you   we need reflection we need a really good memory feel free to call me a little more often