I'm walking down in the basement   I'm leaning on the washing machine   I'm reaching back through a hole in the wall's insulation      I'm pulling out a bottle of vodka   Replacing that with a pint of Jim Bean   I'm lying down on the floor until I feel better      It's morning and I pour myself coffee   I drink it 'til the kitchen stops shaking   I'm backing out of the driveway and into creation      And the loving spirit that follows me   Watching helplessly, will always forgive me      Oh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me   I wanna bring down all those demons who drank with me   Feasting bleed through me, on my desperation      I hide all the bottles in places   They find and confront me with pain in their eyes   And I promise that I'll make some changes      But reaching back it occurs to me   There will always be some kind of crisis for me      Oh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me   I wanna bring back all those moments they stole from me   In my reverie, darkening days end      Oh, I wanna die alone with my memories inside me   I wanna live that life when I could say people had faith in me   I still see that guy in my memory      Oh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me   I wanna bring down all those people who drank with me   Watching happily, my humiliation