they tell me i have to get out of bed   they tell me i have to keep up my strength   i've got to eat something   i'm hoping that the taste will kill me   i have agonized to find a different way   but there is no soothing    for the boiling of my skin   there is no comfort here      so what if i'm standing here?    i still hurt from my hair to my feet   i know this is nothing now    but once it was everything      they tell me i have to get up and dressed   they tell me i have to start getting out   i've got to keep busy   maybe exhertion will do me in   i have been defiled a thousand different ways   there is no pressure for the hemorraging   there is no healing me      so what if i'm walking now?   i still burn every time that i breathe   i know this is nothing now    but once it was everything      it rips me from my dreams   i swear i hear your voice   i run from room to room to find you      so what if i'm walking now?   i still burn every time that i breathe   i know this is nothing   nothing    to me this is everything