Reality slapped me in the face   got to give up my dreams by now   reality was like a kick in the teeth   cant afford to loose up for now     when will i realize   truth hits you   every fucking day   evil is actually a part of me.     my mind is spilling excuses   as my thoughts run down the drain   my body is a constant refusal   to the things that you cannot repair     time to wake the bastard in me   time for you to see   what i am able to be