i let myself fall into a lie   i let my walls come down   i let myself smile and feel alive   i let my walls come down   no matter how i try i don't know why   you push so far away   you wrapped your hands tight around my heart   and squeezed it full of pain       with this knife i'll cut out the part of me    the part that cares for you   with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me   the heart that cares for you      i can't believe the way you took me down   i never saw the pain   coming in a million broken miles   like poison in my veins      [chorus]      the hate and the fear   the nightmares that wake me up   in the tears   the nightmares and (the hate)...