Long lonely nights   My thoughts are a mess   I know what I want but what I want I can't get   Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry   And I think off all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life   Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me   The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom   Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die   Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me   The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom   Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die   My childhood memories are a pain ingrained in me   To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind   I've lost I've lost too many times   I've failed I've failed in society's eyes   Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me   Long lonely nights   My thoughts are a mess   I've known what I want but what I want I couldn't get   Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry   And I think of all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life   Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me   The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom   Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die   Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me   The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom   Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die   To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind   I try to better myself but the rush and stress of life   seems to have pushed everyone ahead and left me behind   I've lost I've lost too many times   I've failed I've failed in society's eyes   Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me   Long painful nights   My thoughts are a mess   My thoughts have become one   I want to end it now   I want to take all those I hate with me on a journey of pain tonight   There won't be any thing you can do about it   cause when I decide it's time it'll be time for all to pay   It's the only way the only way for my conscience and soul to rest at ease   I belong nowhere   Outcast   I belong nowhere   Outsider