I'm looking back on the past   On the things that didn't last   All the tearing, all my failings they catch up with me   I'm looking back on a time   Right when I hit my decline   When I saw you I lost my mind and I went crazy      Do you hear his name   Do you see his face   Etched inside your mind   Do you fear the shame   Do you feel the rape   Do you still say the blame wasn't mine      I understand now   You were only trying to save me   The things I asked I didn't need to know   I understand now   The gift that you gave me   'Cause if I'd known I would've lost control    I just wish you weren't so far      When I saw you beaten on the bed   My mind went blank, my eyes went red   All the anger bottled up inside exploded in me   When I saw the tears in your eyes   I knew we'd be saying our goodbyes   And deep inside I knew this was the ending      Do you hear his name   Do you see his face   Etched inside your mind   Do you fear the shame   Do you feel the rape   Do you still say the blame wasn't mine      I understand now   You were only trying to save me   The things I asked I didn't need to know   I understand now   The gift that you gave me   'Cause if I'd known I would've lost control    I just wish you weren't so far      I'm sorry, so sorry   I'm sorry   I know you know, I told you so   I just lost my mind   I'm sorry, so sorry   I'm sorry   I know you know, I told you so a thousand times      But I never really thanked you   For not dropping any names   For keeping me safe   Because who knows where I would be   If you hadn't thought about me   You're selfless   And I wish you all the best