Choking on feelings I wish I could kill   And use your tears to fill   Holes inside me, bleeding again   As you walk away with an empty heart   I feel my world falling apart   When I think about you   Silent smile, but I know   That I'm still standing alone   With no hand to hold   I know that you have changed   But why do I feel the same?      (chorus)   I tried to see what you've become   You sent me home   I tried to be the one you loved   You left me cold...   (end chorus)      Scratching the tears I wish I couldn't cry   Depressed, I've already swallowed my pride   Sometime along the line I grew alone   But I know that there is a hand to hold   Still I stand alone   Waking up to my own screams   Suffocating on my own dreams   I know I cannot change   I still feel the same      (chorus)      (bridge)   I can't live with myself in the mirror   I wonder what it was like to be me   Crying bloody tears   Only living fears   I can't feel myself anymore   (end bridge)      (chorus 2x)